Friday, December 31, 2010

Time for Reflection

It has been A LONG time since I posted to my blog.  I think this is going to be one of my New Year's more!

Every year at this time I like to take a look back at the year and see where I've been.  I really don't know where to start.  I had a major change in careers this year.  Craig switched jobs again this year, however it is in his field and (hopefully) it is more stable.  The kids are growing up way to fast.  Dalton is in 6th grade and it makes me sad to think that he is almost as tall as I am.  Megan is becoming way too independent and too smart sometimes.

We were able to open our home to a new 'family member' this summer.  A baseball player from California lived with us while he played for the local baseball team.  Brock was a joy to have with us.  Although after looking back we probably annoyed him with all of our stories, questions, and etc.  I wonder if other host families worry about their players when they go out at night?  Sorry Brock just me being a mom! ;-)

We have lost two more young people this year.  Too young to leave us but we never know when God is going to call upon us.  We will miss them and miss their infectious smiles.

So what is going to happen in 2011?  Who knows?  I do know that I am trying to make some resolutions that I can make attainable.  I am going to dive into the Good Book more.  I am going to get out, meet, and make some new friendships.  I am going to reflect more on my days and how they affect those that mean the world to me.

So to end.....Happy New Year to all!  May your year ahead be filled with joy, happiness, and many blessings.

Wednesday, August 18, 2010

Happy Birthday Megan Renee!!!

Seven years ago today I was on my way to the hospital to have my beautiful baby girl.  Since my first pregnancy was pretty much unexciting (meaning....great and no symptoms, well other than a growing belly) this pregnancy was the exact opposite.

It all started with finding out I was pregnant on Christmas Eve which was quickly followed by morning sickness.  The funny thing is my morning sickness went on sometimes all day long.  I often found myself locking myself in my office to avoid any smells or otherwise I would end up in the bathroom.  This lasted pretty much the entire pregnancy BUT it was not as bad as I've heard other ladies having...thankfully.

Next was gestational diabetes.  Do you know how hard it is for a pregnant lady to be on a diet?  And then to have the doctor question every week why you are losing weight?  Gee...doc...because I can't have the chocolate zingers that you told me to stop eating!!!  Anyway....because of the diabetes I had to have weekly stress tests and sonograms.  Now don't get me wrong I throughly enjoyed seeing that baby every week on the screen.  What I didn't enjoy was hearing the tech mention every week how big the baby was getting and how much bigger she could get by the time I delivered her.

Let me take you back to my oldest son, Dalton, who weighed in a whooping ten and half pounds when he was born.  The doctor was worried that our baby girl would be as big if not bigger if we didn't monitor the progress.  So a week before our scheduled C-section the tech says, "She's weighing in at almost nine pounds and you still have a week or more before you deliver.  I wouldn't buy any newborn diapers if I were you!"  REALLY?  Did I just hear her right?

Needless to say, the day of the C-section I was a little anxious about the delivery.  But leave it to the second child to surprise us as much as the first child.  Megan Renee Trussell was born at 1:16 p.m. weighing it at 7lbs. 11oz.  Our petite little girl!

This precious little girl started off her life in a quiet, happy, content state.  The baby that slept the entire first night home from the hospital.  The baby that would sit and smile for hours.  The darling little girl that ventured into her independent state.  Fiesty, witty, and full of _____ & _____(I'll let you fill in the blanks).  And yes she gets all of her traits from me!

Megan is funny, clever, creative, and has a mind of her own.  I wouldn't have it any other way!  Eight wonderful years with this angel sent from!  You are my sunshine, my only sunshine, you make me happy when skies are gray...Happy Birthday Megan!!!

Some favorite pics of mine...
Just a couple days old

4 months old

18 months old

3 year old "Truman Tiger" for Halloween

Megan drew this when she was 4-5 years favorite

What a pretty girl!!!

Wednesday, August 4, 2010

Facebook: Good or Evil?

Facebook:  Good or Evil?

First I must say....I, Michelle Trussell, am a Facebook addict.  I admit it.  I am not ashamed.  Facebook is on my cell phone, I receive notifications via text messages so that I'll know what is going on, and I check it routinely throughout the day.  Will that change?  Maybe.  But is it bad for me? 

The last couple of weeks I have had several friends determine they were no longer be on Facebook because of something that has happened in their lives. I have had friends say Facebook has ruined friendships and relationships.  And I've heard stories where people have gotten fired over things they have posted on Facebook.

Let me put an editorial comment in here.  The following is simply my own personal opinion.  I feel that Facebook will only harm me as far as I let it.  I don't post specific things about my job because I don't want to in anyway harm my career or livelihood.  I try not to post negative thoughts or feelings about situations and/or people (I said try).  I don't like to get involved in political comments or discussions because I don't think its the place. 

Facebook is a social network site.  Plain and simple.  In my opinion it allows you to connect with old friends, co-workers, family, etc that you may not have the opportunity to connect with on a typical level.  I have reconnected with family that I have not seen in 30 years.  I have reconnected with a brother that I have not seen in probably over 25 years.  I have reconnected with old schoolmates and friends, that except for the occasional run-in, I rarely see.  I enjoy seeing people's funny posts, stories about their kids, accomplishments they have, or goals they are making. 

Do I allow people's comments affect MY goals, values, or morals? NO.  Will I allow it to ruin my relationship with my kids or husband?  Absolutely not.  If I would allow it to enter my mind that much then I'm essentially allowing Satan to take control over my life.  My life is in God's hands.  I have to follow His guidance and teachings and allow Him to affect my life. 

I guess my point....Facebook is for fun, mindless activities.  When you start to read too much into posts, comments, etc. that's when the trouble starts.  Let God be your sounding board...not Facebook.

Friday, May 7, 2010

7 Quick Takes Friday

Its been awhile since I've done a Quick Takes.  However, I need to get back into my blog!


I have been at my new job for a month now!  It has been a great month!  After 13 years with the same company and same career, I would be lying if I said I wasn't scared out of my mind upon taking this new adventure!!  I also knew that if I didn't take this position I would constantly wonder about it and where my life would lead.  So when provided with the opportunity from God I jumped on it!  I am thankful that I have great co-workers who put up with my endless questions on learning my new job and that make going to work everyday fun!  I am also thankful and have been blessed to have worked for a company the last 13 years that allowed me to finish my degree, give me flexibility for my kid's sake, and supervisors that supported my decisions and that now I call friends.


My new job takes me out into the 'field' several times a week.  This Tuesday was my first day in the 'field' by myself.  It totally rocked!!!!!  I know, I know.  I sound a little giddy about it but that's because I am.


Baseball has been in full swing since the first of April but Dalton has not been swinging the bat so great.  Craig and I have been giving little pep talks before every game but nothing seemed to help.  He is playing on a very competative team and playing in tournaments almost every weekend.  This is his first year doing this and I think a little nervousness developed in him and put him in a slump.  Well, Praise God this week he is starting to turn it around and playing like the player we know he can be!  Now I know I can't (or maybe shouldn't) pray to God for them to win every game but believe me I am praying that Dalton's ability shines through and shows his coaches and teammates what he is made of!


My second job, Parents as Teachers, has taken some pretty big budget cuts from our lovely governor.  I'll try to leave my personal opinion out of it, but several of my fellow co-workers are dealing with some difficult decisions this week.  Due to the budget cuts several of our families may not receive services anymore.  Plus the Governor could decide to cut the program out all together before its all over with.  I am blessed to have my full-time job and that this job is a benefit and pleasure to do.  However, it is a much needed program for the state and community.  Early childhood education is the first step to successful learning in higher education!


On a lighter note....Did you know that chewing gum WILL actually keep you awake and/or alert when you are driving?  A little trick I had heard and told Craig about when he started driving to Kansas City for work.  And now that I am driving to Kansas City have found it actually works!


I have also learned in my new commuting experience, that if you have something planned to do after work and are in a rush to get home, you will always end up in a traffic jam.  So... I have also learned that you might as well just sit back, turn the radio up, and sing your lungs out to pass the time.  Getting aggravated only creates more issues!!!

7. honor of Mother's Day....I must say I have the best mom around!  She is always there for me and is willing to come in a moments notice.  She is my best friend and the one I usually turn to.  Thank you Mom for all you do! 

Tuesday, May 4, 2010

Am I Ever Good Enough?

I think I ask myself this question too much.  Those nastly little insecurities that sneak up and smack ya on the butt! 

"That outfit is soo cute but would look like I'm pregnant if I wore it."
"I'm so stupid sometimes."
"Why does it seem like I have no one to talk to?"
"Can I handle this?"
"How am I going to handle this?"
"Am I good enough?"

The list goes on and on....

I need to remember that the only one that matters is God.  It is Him I answer to.  And I am always good enough for Him.  But why is that so hard to grab onto sometimes?

Wednesday, April 28, 2010

Momma Bear

I have always said:  "You can mess with me but don't you dare mess with my kids!"  (Actually I don't say it quite that nicely but wanted to clean it up for the blog's sake.)

All of you mothers out there know what I mean.  And for those future mothers...if you don't already will as soon as that precious baby is born!

It all starts with something happening to one of my kids and the protective nature takes over and all I want to do is make it better.

For example:

*The day your child tells you that they don't have any friends.  I automatically wanted to enroll them in every possible social activity.
*The day your child says that they didn't get picked for something at school because they were absent that day.  I instantly wanted to be in the principal's office asking why.
*The day your child's friend tells you that one of the teachers at school thinks that your child is faking their allergies/asthma.  It makes you want to ask the teacher if they have children.
*The nights that your children can't sleep because they are sick.
*The illnesses that zapp their little bodies of all energy.
*The heartaches they have when they feel that they aren't noticed.

I realize that even though my kids are still young and that I still have YEARS ahead of me of heartache and illnesses, it still does not diminish the fact that I will forever be the momma bear protecting my young.

Friday, March 12, 2010

7 Quick Takes Friday

In my family we have a birthday cluster between end of February and first part of March.  One of my nephews turned 8 at the end of February, my son turned 11 on March 2nd, my Dad turned __ on March 4th, and another nephew turned 10 on March 10th.  Last Friday we were able to celebrate three of those birthdays at my mom's house.  We had a great supper but even better conversations.  I was finally able to tell some embarassing stories on my brother instead of the other way around.

Last Saturday we were able to watch my nephew play hockey.  This was the first time I was able to watch him play.  He is sooo talented on that ice!  He made the only three goals for his team and got his "hat trick."  We couldn't be prouder of him!

Craig's job is still on the rocky side.  Please continue to pray for us on that end. 

Attending a conference over Early Childhood Education this weekend.  It is out of town so it makes for a long weekend but enjoy learning and applying new ideas!

I don't go out of town often and especially without my kiddos.  So every year at this time a little anxiety settles in about whos gonna take care of kids when Craig is at work?  Will ___ get done?  What will they eat for dinner?  So, this week on top of packing for myself, I preceded to make lists.  My parents graciously offered to spend the night so Craig could still go to work at normal time and they got the kids off to school.  So a full page list of 'instructions' went out to Grandma.  I say instructions but they are more like helpful hints of what to do, typical morning routine, and general housekeeping things.  This is my Type A personality coming out.

I have learned that while I enjoy getting away for some 'me' time, I miss my husband.  He drives me insane at times but there is a comfort knowing he's next to me or just in the next room.

Daylight Savings time is this weekend and that only means one thing.....spring, longer days, baseball games, and summer is not too far behind.  Bring it on!  I'm ready!

Monday, March 1, 2010

Happy Birthday Dalton Alan!!

Eleven years ago today I was in labor and preparing to give birth to my first child.  The original due date was February 23, 1999 (exactly nine months from our wedding date).  Yes, we have a honeymoon baby!

However, on February 25th the doctor stated he was going to induce our precious baby because he was afraid the baby was getting too big.  Too big?  What did he mean 'too big'?  So on the 26th, Craig and I arrived at the hospital bright and early only to spend the next 8 hours twiddling our thumbs and watching a lot of TV with nothing else going on.  We were sent home.  We spent the next couple of days waiting for contractions and doing everything possible to start this baby thing going.  Craig took me to the mall to walk around hoping that would spur along contractions.  The only thing it spurred was comments such as "Oh my goodness, did you see that lady she's huge!" "That lady looks like she's gonna pop right here!"  Needless to say, we left quickly before the pregnancy  hormones caused a postal episode.

On Monday, March 1st we headed back to the hospital and this time was hooked up to IV and was told I was not going home until this baby came.  Well this baby had other opinions about when he wanted to come out.  Long story short...he arrived on Tuesday, March 2nd. 

Dalton Alan was born at 12:59 a.m. weighing in at 10lbs. 8 oz.  Yep!  The doctor had reason for his wanting to induce because this baby was too big!

Just a few pictures of Dalton through the years....

Only a few days old

Nine months old

Not quite two years old

My cowboy (Halloween)-3 years old

Our Batman phase.  That cape (blanket) didn't come off for an entire year!-4 years old

5 years old-First baseball team

Master Fisherman-9 years old

10 years old-Baseball pic

I will always remember the first night he was born.  Grandma was holding him in her lap while he looked up at her with wide eyes and all ears.  Craig walked into the room and said, "Hey Little Man!"  Dalton turned his head completely around to see his Daddy who had just said the same greeting he had heard for nine months in the womb.  Just another example of God's precious miracle. 

11 years with this precious angel.  Dalton is sensitive, caring, smart, funny, and just a great kid! 

Happy Birthday Dalt!!!

We love you more than you will ever know!!!

Friday, February 26, 2010

7 Quick Take Fridays

I have never been so glad to see the sunshine!  I don't care if it is only 30 degrees outside.  At least the sun is shining and it makes the day better!

It was exactly one year ago today that Craig was laid off from his job that he had for over 5 years.  It has been a rough year and somehow continues to send us through trials.  We have been blessed that God has provided other jobs for Craig since then.  However, he is having difficulty settling in.  So now we pray that God's plan will continue to see us through and that maybe we can stop waking up each morning wondering, "Do I have a job today?"

My son was invited to play on a traveling baseball team.  He went to 'try-out' and they asked us to become part of the team.  He is SUPER excited about this opportunity.  We took some time to talk about it and discuss all the pros and cons.  Trust me there are the being the biggest one!  This is something that Dalton has wanted to do for sometime now.  It was ultimately his decision so we will see how he enjoys playing this year. 
Megan has decided to try her feet at soccer this year.  She said that she didn't want to play softball/t-ball and wanted to do soccer.  So I officially signed her up for that yesterday.  Although the other evening Dalton and I were talking to her about it and Dalton said, "Megan you do realize that you can only use your feet when you play soccer?"  She said, "Yes."  I said, "Megan, you do realize that you have to run the whole time that you are playing soccer?"  She says, "Maybe I don't want to play soccer afterall"  Yes, she is my child!  She is still excited and I can't wait to see if this ends up being her sport!

My schedule officially starts getting busy and complicated now that spring is on its way (well hopefully its on its way).  Between soccer practice, baseball practice, soccer games, baseball games, working evenings, oh yeah and Craig plays softball as well we might as well shut off all utilities in the house from April through July.  Maybe we could pay for some of Dalton's baseball expenses that way ;-)

I slept 6 straight hours last night without waking up!  I know, that may not impress any of you, but trust me this a new record for me!

I treated myself to a haircut today.  This is about as girly as I get but there is something about going to a salon and spending 30 minutes getting pampered that just makes your day! 

Have a blessed day everyone!!!

Sunday, February 21, 2010

Sunshine Please

One of the local weather stations said that the sun has only been visible 14 days since January 1st.  Is it wrong to pray for the sun to come out?  I don't even care if it is only 30 degrees at least the sun would be out!

The gray and gloom of winter has taken over and not just in the physical and literal aspect.  It affects your mood and your spirit.  I have heard a lot of people commenting on how they have these 'winter blues'. 

Well, they have officially hit this lady!  I try to make the best of it.  I try to smile even when I want to frown and scream.  I get up, get dressed, and go to work when I would really like to curl back up in bed and sleep till the temperatures hit 50.  I wave and smile at the person driving like a maniac in the snow that just about runs into the side of me rather than doing what I really want to do and lift up a certain finger and road rage takes over. 

If I am feeling this way I cannot imagine what this weather does to those suffering from depression.  I hope they are seeking some peace in therapy, loved ones, or God's word.  I know that is where I go when it seems all things and people seem against me...I go to God. 

My pastor said this morning that his daughter prayed for snow before bed last night and we have received over 7 inches of the white stuff.  He said he was going to talk to her about praying for 70 degree weather and sun.  I pray that God listens to that prayer!

Tuesday, February 9, 2010


I'm thinking about trying something new and having a little difficulty deciding if I should do it or not.  I'm not posting this on Facebook and/or Twitter for one main reason....I don't want my bosses to necessarily see this. 

I have received a letter from the State of MO to apply/interview for a job position.  This is a job that I have wanted for some time.  Not sure of the exact schedule and such but I know there would be some adjustment in the schedule that I have become accustomed to...let alone enjoy.

With my current job I am basically free to set my own schedule, take time off whenever, leave early, go in late, take time off for my kids and make up the time later, and able to bring my kids in with me whenever I need to.

With this position I am sure there would be an extensive training period which would then mean having to pay someone to watch the kiddos.  Lots of travel time which then means extra gas and mileage on another car because Craig is already doing that to his.

However, it would be better money and better benefits.  Yes this is a BIG perk because lets face it I wouldn't have to work two jobs if I had this one.  However, is this job worth the extra money if I am paying out more for childcare, gas, and the loss of flexibility? 

Not sure what to do but I'm begining to think that its time for a change and time to pray about it.  So if you don't mind pray for me to see what the right decision is.  I guess it doesn't hurt to go for an interview and see what could transpire, right?

Friday, February 5, 2010

7 Quick Takes Friday


Anxiety tried to take over this week again.  God kicked it though!  So glad He is on my side!


Furnace has been acting up lately (well actually since before Christmas).  Found a nice gentleman that works on them on the side and he was able to come over and fix it.  God bless him!!!  He charged me 1/4 of the price a normal repairman would have charged me!


Scheduling employees has always been difficult.  And just when you think you have hired enough people to cover any possible absences the sickness hits and you're still short-handed. 


Spent alot of time with God this week!  Love taking an extra fifteen minutes in the morning to spend time in His word.


Found out the great Governor of our state has decided to cut more money from the Parents As Teachers program.  He is calling for a $4.1 million from the program from next years budget.  I have emailed him (twice) and telephoned.  I have put as much information on Facebook and Twitter to make more people aware of the program and pray that they will advocate as well.  Yes, I work for this program, but as a parent this program was a gift when my children were little.  If it did that much for me as a parent imagine what it does for teenage mothers, low income families, and families with special needs.  Then to make matters worse my boss emailed me today and said he is cutting another $2 million from THIS YEARS budget!  Pray I have this job in another month!


Because I belong to a wonderful church they are allowing my family to utilize one of their spaces for my grandmother's 91st birthday party! 

Another week....another snow!  I use to love winter time.  I use to like the cold and snow.  Then 2007 ice storm happened and I could care less if I see the temperature below 45 degrees every again.  I don't even care if I see it snow again.  With that being said.....bring on spring training and baseball weather!!!!!! 

Tuesday, February 2, 2010

Goodbye Guilt

The last couple of weeks at church we have been discussing family.  We all put on this facade when we are in public but if people could look into the windows of our home what would they see?  Would they see the same people, same Moms and Dads, wives and husbands?  Or would they see something dishonest, horrific, or unGodly?

I personally try to be the same whether I'm at home, work, or at the grocery store.  But let's face it I'm not.  Can anyone really say they are?  I know for me,  I am more tactful and polite in public than in home.  Just ask Craig.  I am more sociable in public than at home because well sometimes I'm just a bear to be around!

I have been taking a hard look at what the real message was.  Can I honestly say I am the same Christian in public and at home?  No.  I am guilty.  I am guilty of no sharing Christ at work because I don't want to offend anyone or risk losing my job.  I am guilty of treating others with more respect and patience than my own children and/or husband.

I may be totally off base but, I think Satan puts the guilt there.  I don't think God wants us to feel guilty I believe that he wants us to learn and grow.  He wants us to realize that we must spread His word even if that means stepping on toes.  At least we have planted the seed that He can sow.  I also believe that He wants me to be a better parent than the one I am now.  By studying His word and sharing that with my children it will grow our relationship as well as our relationship with Him.  And I know that I can be a better wife.  And by going through His word together with Craig it will only continue to bring us closer together and have a lasting marriage and friendship.

So goodbye guilt!  I have some studying and sharing to do!

Monday, January 25, 2010

Need some spritual understanding....

There are days where I am the poster child for the phrase 'dumb blonde'.  Sometimes it feels like everyday and all day long.  Think back to your college days.  You are in a class that you wanted to take, eager to take, and giddy with learning the subject matter.  Then ten minutes into lecture your brain turns to mush.  By two weeks into the semester you are wondering why in the world you took the class but were determined to understand and pass the course. 

Sometimes I feel this turmoil when studying the Bible.  I am constantly seeking wisdom and understanding of God's word.  Occasionally upon reading scripture though my brain turns to mush, the blonde in me suddenly wants to drink, and I'm ready to throw in the towel.  I feel like I'm studying for a final exam that will determine the rest of my life....or actually I probably am, right?

Why must I feel this way?  I don't like it.   I don't like feeling like I'm the stupidest person sitting in church.  The last month or so I am desperately seeking God and searching for answers.  I am craving His word and the need for it to be in my life.  What I thought was God's plan does not seem to be coming into fruition.  I know that God puts us through tough times to test us, but how do you know if it is God testing you or Satan trying to beat you up?  (or is this a dumb blonde question?)

I guess I'm wondering if this is normal.  Is it normal not to understand His word?  Is it normal to want to have it spoken to me like I'm a three year old so that I can understand it?  Is it normal to want the black and white picture so that I can quit having anxiety and stress? 

Lord, help me understand your plan for me.  Give me the wisdom and knowledge to understand Your word and to share it with others.  Help me through these trials and to be full of Your grace.  In Jesus name, Amen.

Friday, January 22, 2010

7 Quick Takes Friday

I have been really bad about updating my blog lately so I am just now getting to it so here it goes....

A couple of weeks ago my friend Maggie awarded me a blog award!  How exciting!!! 

I'm not sure I can come up with 7 quick takes to list but its worth a shot to try.  I apologize ahead of time if you end up falling asleep before you finish reading this entry.

1.  Recently at my main job I had several different employee positions become open.  I had my HR department place an ad in the paper.  Because the economy and job market SUCKS I wasn't at all surprised when we had several people apply for the positions.  I was surprised however when I interviewed five different people and four of them I ended up hiring.  Typically when I am doing these interviews I end up chosing the 'best of the worst' candidate so I was thankful when I had options and qualified people to hire.

2.  My kids received their grade cards this week.  I am more than happy to report that they both did awesome.  Dalton is in 5th grade and made the all A Honor Roll as well as Principal Honor Roll (which means he had all straight A's).  Megan is in Kindergarten so her grade card does not give a grade but more tells if she is mastering skills.  At the end of last quarter she was hitting almost all the skills so it was not a surprise that she is still doing well and has progressed in those areas that she hadn't mastered last time.

3.  My husband, Craig, never ceases to amaze me!  For all the flack I give him I have to give credit where credit is due.  He steps up and does whatever is needed.  Last Saturday as I sat lazily in the recliner all day long he battled the laundry.  All week as he walked into the door from work, I was walking out the door to my second job.  He fixed supper, did dishes, made sure homework and baths were done.  I am blessed!

4.  This week has been a rough week personally.  The guilt is getting the better of me.  I feel guilty everytime I have to step out the door to go to another job.  Whether it is making my kids get up before the sun comes up so that I can rush to work.  Or picking my kids up from school and immediately going back to work and sticking them in a preschool classroom so that I can cover for staff that have called in for the day.  Then this week I discovered that I have a prior work commitment the same night that Megan's Kindergarten class is having a Valentine's Program.  I am blessed to have awesome co-workers that are willing to cover me so I can attend but sometimes that doesn't help the guilt.

5.  Anxiety is also stepping in full force.  I have and probably always will be a worry wart.  However, the last couple of weeks it has gotten worse.  I worry about little things in the house breaking down:  the furnace, the washer, the refrigerator, etc.  I worry about Craig's job.  He is having a rough time grasping some of the training and procedures.  He is worried that if he doesn't pick it up he isn't going to be there long.  So now we are both worrying.  I worry that the car is going to break down.  So then I wonder if we should trade it off before we end up spending money we don't have to fix it. 

6.  Stress is causing some physical aliments.  I am sick to my stomach most days.  I am positive it is from one of my jobs but I can't quit (and don't know if I really want to). 

7.  The last quick take is the best though.  It makes all of the above go away.  My Lord and Savior!  I have spent ALOT of time in my Bible this week.  I have woke up early just so I can have 15-20 minutes of quiet time with my Bible before heading out for the day.  I know that He has a plan for me, for Craig, and for the kids.  So I am seeking His wisdom more and more. 

I apologize for being a 'Debbie Downer' in my takes.  I think that is part of the reason why I haven't posted in awhile.  I don't like to be negative, let alone put it out there for a pity party.  But I also know that prayers and talking about it is better than bottling it up.  I know how blessed I am.  I am blessed every morning to wake up to a husband that loves me, two children that I adore, two jobs that provide for our needs, parents that love me unconditionally, and so many more things.   I promise next week my 7 takes will be more positive and maybe a tad bit more exciting (maybe)!  ;-)

Sunday, January 3, 2010


A few of our church members, along with our pastor, are traveling to Santa Cruz del Quiche Guatemala to work on planting a church there.  Our pastor asked us to pray for safe travels, God's word, and the work that they will be doing in God's name.

The last couple of years I have thought it would be interesting and enlightening to take one of these trips.  Everytime a trip was announced I would sit there and start to think, "I want to go but..."  Then the list would start coming:

Can I afford the trip?
Can I afford to take time off of work?
Who would take the kids to school?
Craig lost his we really can't afford it?
Who would watch the kids while Craig works?

Is the list above actual barricades or are they just excuses? 

After church I did my typical Sunday after lunch routine and popped right onto Facebook.  My pastor had posted a status about the trip and made a comment of the possibility of starting an orphanage in the same city.  I really don't know what made me do it but I immediately replied to him and told him that I would be interested in that mission.  Then I told Craig what I had said.  His reply, "Honey, that would TOTALLY be something you would do."  The pastor stated they are going to do more research and he would keep me posted on any information that would come out of it.

The last few years I have felt a strong urge that somehow and someway God wants me to do something with adoption.  Is it Craig and I adopting?  Is it helping others to adopt?  I'm not sure but He's talking and I sure am listening.

So those excuses up there are going to have to go away.  I know that God will provide a way for all my questions and/or obstacles to be answered.  He will find a way to provide the means for me to go.  He will provide someone to step up and help Craig out so I can go.   I am super excited!   And to be able
to see God's work come to life.  Wow!